Grief bonds
Grief knits two hearts in closer bonds than happiness ever can; and common sufferings are far stronger links than common joys
By Alphonse de Lamartine |
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28th August 1951
1st August 2007
From Renmark, SA, Australia
(formerly of Blayney NSW) Australia
~ Mum's Eulogy ~
(from her funeral, 6th August, 2007)
Bev was born on the 28th August, 1951, in a small town in Western NSW called Condobolin, to Bill and Joan Higgins. She was the youngest of four children - having an older sister (Gloria) and two brothers (John & Ron).
Bev was born and bred on the land and always had an affinity with both it - and animals... especially horses. She started riding at a very young age and it wasn't long before she was a very accomplished horsewoman, whose passion continued till the day she died. Speaking of the day Bev died... for the horse people among you today - you may well have noticed the connection with the date, the 1st August, 2007. It was quite appropriate that she passed on this day, as it is known as the Horses' Birthday. Bev must have thought it was quite apt too!
Bev had three children, Tracey the oldest, followed then by Graeme and Jason. There were always extra children around the place though as Bev always tended to be a surrogate and understanding 'mum' figure to plenty of other children throughout her life. Tracey, Graeme and Jason were always told how lucky they were to have a cool mum and they could only agree! Bev always involved herself in her children's activities and had fun doing it. Some activities included pony club instructor, basketball coach and soccer mum.
Bev was so much more to her children than just being their mum... she was also their best friend. There were plenty of times growing up that Bev covered for the kids and got them out of trouble. Graeme and Jason remember swinging on the old clothes line outside - going round and round till it snapped to the ground. Bev went crook on them of course - but covered for them, with their dad, and said she had tripped and grabbed it! Tracey remembers her mum giving her - her first reversing lesson in their car - up the narrow lane beside their house. Tracey put her foot down and roared backwards - sideswiping all of the trees on the left hand side of the car. Bev took the blame for that too - so Tracey would be able to get in the driver's seat again for another lesson.
All Bev wanted in life was for her children to be happy - and she was thrilled in the knowledge that they were all in happy marriages and relationships with loving families.
In 2001 Bev met a pretty special man who stole her heart and became an integral part of her happiness in these last years of her life. It pleased the family greatly when Bev and Ted got married in Fiji, in 2003, and Ted became an official part of Bev's family. Bev and Ted had such a special bond and even on the second last day of her life when she was mainly sleeping and hardly talking... Bev heard Tracey telling Ted (over her bedside) how special he was to her.. .and how happy he has made her over the last 6 years. No sooner had she said it - than Bev opened her eyes and smiled. It was if she was thanking Tracey for saying it - and letting her 'Bucky' (as she nicknamed Ted) know just how true it was.
Anyone who met Bev could not help but like her. Her fun loving and straight forward nature drew people like bees to honey. There were 'no flies' on Bev and she was never afraid to speak her mind or stick up for what she believed was right. Bev was always one for the underdog - and lo and behold anyone who tried to pick on the underdog when she was around.
As mentioned earlier - Bev had a fond love of animals. Growing up, the kids remember living in a household where there were pet emus, pigs, sheep, dogs, 17 cats at one stage, plenty of horses, goats, ferrets, rabbits, chooks etc... Also - if anybody can tell you that foxes can't be tamed - never met Bev's pet fox... once again saved and reared by Bev!
Bev was a keen wildlife warrior too and there would often be midnight phone calls to save a baby joey whose mother had been shot. It was not often in her lifetime that there were not at least 3 or 4 pet kangaroos hopping around the place.
Bev was also a bit of a 'bush vet' and fixed many of the families animals when they were injured - or other people's that they brought to her. One incident that stands out - was her working on a gelding whose shoulder had been badly ripped on a steel stake. Her persistence each day with tending to the horse - saw him fit again with hardly a scar. Another incident was the time an unborn lamb had died inside a ewe. They couldn't get it out - so Bev gave the sheep a caesarean, removed the dead lamb and then stitched it up! It recovered beautifully and lived to have a long life but for some reason or other - it never produced lambs again!
Another example of her dedication to animals was when Graeme came home with a young Chihuahua puppy. It had been running around the house with another of their pups - when it knocked his head into the table legs and knocked himself out cold. Bev flew over to him and the future didn't look great for little Hermie. Bev got on her hands and knees and started giving this Chihuahua mouth to mouth - and revived him!
Bev's children had a bit of a giggle when Bev moved over to Renmark from her home in Blayney, NSW. Poor old Ted didn't realise what he was in for. Ted who had no animals didn't know what was going to hit him. Here was this man who did not have a single pet - and look at what they ended up with; a big Rottweiler dog, cats, birds, fish, a miniature horse stud, turtles and even an ant farm! The kids tried to warn you Ted.. but they also thought it was amusing at the same time to sit back and watch. That is another reason why they love Ted so much... He indulged Bev and her interests soon became his as well. In that way they really bounced well off each other - because Bev developed a lot of Ted's interests as well, for example their love of old wares and curios.
Another important role Bev played was that of beloved nanny - or 'ninny' as she was initially called, to that of her grandchildren. She had four grandchildren, Sammi, Billy, Chanon and Alex, and was very proud of them all. She was so pleased that Sammi showed such an interest in horses from such a young age - and that they shared that passion till the end. Bev said to her children last week - to not let the grandchildren forget her and was reassured they never will. Even in everyone's heartbreak now it is hard to stay sad for too long.. not when there are so many stories to tell, involving Bev, that usually involve great amounts of laughter. The family are lucky because they have so many precious memories, lovely photos and video footage of her. This will bring them all great comfort.
Bev always had a great belief in coming back... and that death was only part of the process in the world we are in... it wasn't the end of her spirit... just another step in her journey. Bev would always say that she would be watching out over her family and they all truly believe she will be. A mother and wife with a love as strong as hers will never die... and her family are so grateful for that number one lesson she taught them the most... that of love.
Ted and the kids are going to miss Bev a lot, but they are also glad she is out of pain now and that her very hard fought battle with Ovarian Cancer is over.
Ted would like to say after working and living alone for so long - it was sheer joy and love to be able to work, laugh and play alongside a loving partner. Through her illness Bev never complained or said 'why me?'. Bev always had a positive nature and they carried on with life.
Bev is probably reunited with her favourite mare from her younger days, Silver, and is already up there jumping the gates of Heaven, and galloping around God's garden. Hopefully she will stir up the rain a bit while she's up there and get this Murray River flowing strong again.
RIP Bev... you deserve it, and once again... thanks for being a number one mum to your children, a loving wife to Ted, and a good friend to many.
Songs from mum's service:
Calling All Angels - Jane Siberry.
When I get where I am going - Brad Paisley and Dolly Parton.
Because you loved me - Celine Dion.
Remembered By Tracey Mackie
Created On 1st August 2014 |
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By Tracey on 1st August 2014
Hi Ma, It is 7 years today... Right about this time actually,that you left for Heaven and were free of the pain you were in. I'll never forget that night - ever.... I'll never forget the pain of my heart feeling like it was being ripped apart... I miss you Ma, but you know I talk to you all the time. I know the boys do too. You're always remembered to all the grandkids and they can talk about you as if you were still here. You are alive to them... You'll never be forgotten. Love you Ma... We all do. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 11th May 2014
Happy Mother's Day Ma... Thought about you heaps today and I know the boys did too. I never fail to have a sook, I still miss you like crazy. I lost my best friend the day you died... I guess I am one of the lucky ones to have had a mum like you, so I shall count my blessings. Love you Ma, as we all do. xoxoxo |
By Tracey on 11th May 2014
Happy Mother's Day Ma... Thought about you heaps today and I know the boys did too. I never fail to have a sook, I still miss you like crazy. I lost my best friend the day you died... I guess I am one of the lucky ones to have had a mum like you, so I shall count my blessings. Love you Ma, as we all do. xoxoxo |
By Tracey on 28th April 2014
Hiya Ma, I haven't forgotten you as you'd know. I'm always talking to you and you're always on my mind. Wish Pop a Happy Birthday for me <3 We're lucky we can talk and laugh when we tell our stories now... It has been a long time but it is so good when we do it. I love how all the grandkids talk about you still so easily in their conversations, even though they were all so young. You will live on forever in our stories Ma... Love you so much. xoxoxo |
By Tracey on 1st January 2014
Happy New Year Ma... Another year that has gone so very quickly. Can't believe it will be 7 years this year without you, it has gone so quick.
I know you look down on us and one day we will all be together again. Love you so much Mum xoxoxo |
By Tracey on 25th December 2013
Merry Christmas Ma... As usual you were in our thoughts and in our stories and most importantly always in our hearts xxxxxxx. Miss you always xxx |
By Tracey on 10th November 2013
Love you Ma... I hope you like the trees we've all planted for you. I love checking on it and know it's going to grow beautiful and strong - just as you were. You told me I'd know when the time was right, and it felt right. Darrell has a tree too (finally) :)
We think of you all the time.
Love you xoxoxo |
By Tracey on 28th August 2013
Happy 62nd Birthday Ma... Love you so much xoxoxo |
By Tracey on 6th August 2013
Hi Ma,
Was thinking of you last night, and also today. 6 years since I last looked at you and kissed you goodbye... Miss you so much old girl xoxoxo |
By Tracey on 1st August 2013
Hi Ma, It's that time of year again... This night six years ago you were taken to Heaven. I will never forget that feeling for the rest of my life... as if my heart had been ripped from my chest.
I was glad you were out of pain though... but the selfish side of me still wanted you there, for me. I love you so much Ma... so do the boys. We miss you every day.
There are three hearts beating on this earth that think of you every day... You are never far from our thoughts.
Love you Ma,
Tracey xoxoxo |
By Tracey on 30th July 2013
Thinking of you so much the last few days Ma.... Knowing that this time six years ago it was leading up to losing you :( It was the most intense painful thing I have ever experienced in my life... Love you so much Mum xoxoxo |
By Tracey on 29th May 2013
Thank you so much Ma for looking out for me. I thank God too! My scan was clear. It has been the epiphany I needed to wake up to myself and get my health on track. I won't waste my second chance. Love you so much Ma xoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 28th May 2013
Hiya Ma, I've got a bit of a scare at the moment and I am so frightened and worried :( Please look over me and help thing to be ok. I want to be around a long time yet to look after these kids of mine. So worried Ma. Gosh I miss you xoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 12th May 2013
Happy Mother's Day Ma. Thinking of you heaps today and I wish you were of course, but I know you're with us all even if it is in spirt. Looked at some old photos and they made me smile... I just wish we had more of them. Love you Ma and thanks for being my Mother xoxoxoxoxoxoxox |
By Tracey on 12th April 2013
Hiya Ma, I'm 44 today. I'm thinking of you heaps though and how you were thinking and feeling this day 44 years ago. God I miss you mum. I hope you're watching over us, especially the number 1 son. He needs extra watching over and some angelic guidance. I worry so much about him. Love you Ma xoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 6th March 2013
Hiya Ma, I feel so down today. Things are building up with number 1 son... suspensions etc. Gosh I wish I had you hear to talk too. I miss you so much xoxoxo |
By Tracey on 1st January 2013
Happy New Year Ma... Time is stretching now but you'll never be forgotten xoxoxox |
By Tracey on 25th December 2012
Merry Christmas Ma xoxox Our 6th Christmas without you, but we did think of you.
Had a beautiful day with the family and all the grandkids - you would have loved it.
You are always on our mind mum... we miss you still so very much.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 3rd October 2012
Hi Ma, Gosh I wish you were around to talk too. I miss you so bad and you always had the right advice and knew just what to say... If you can help me, please give me a sign as to what I should do...
I love you Ma xoxoxo |
By Tracey on 28th August 2012
Happy 61st Birthday Ma!! Love you and miss you so much. Thank you for watching over us - I know you are. There are so many times I talk to you - I wish you could answer me back. Love you Ma...
xoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 6th August 2012
Hey Ma, Today was the last day I saw you ever, 5 years ago. You looked beautiful in your pink dress. I often wonder what Sammi wrote in her letter to you, but I hope it made you smile up above.
Love you Ma, sooooooooooo much.
xoxoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 1st August 2012
Five years mum... It is five years today :( Can't believe that half a decade has gone since you left us. I miss you so much ma... our talks, our jokes... that HUGE laugh you had that brought tears to my eyes in our giggle fests. You were not only my mum - you were my best friend. I have a huge hole in my heart that will never be filled. I know we'll be together again one day but until then I know you're looking over me and the family.
Love you Ma... xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 13th July 2012
Miss you so much Ma... I know you're looking over us xoxoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 13th May 2012
Happy Mother's Day Ma!!
Five years ago was the last one I got to talk to you and wish you Happy Mother's Day. I miss you Ma and can't tell you enough how much I love you. You are the best mother a person could have ever asked for.
Love you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxooooooooooooooxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 28th April 2012
Hiya Ma, Miss you and love you xoxoxo
Give Pop a big kiss for me today for his birthday!
Thanks for looking over us xoxoxox |
By Tracey on 11th April 2012
43 years ago Ma... Thinking of you and I miss you so much.
I know you're with me today xoxoxo |
By Tracey on 3rd February 2012
Hey Ma,
Just checking in. You're always in my thoughts though and I know you know that xoxox |
By Tracey on 31st December 2011
Happy New Years Ma - on Aussie time xoxo
Another year in which you're not here with us physically. I know you're here with us spiritually.
Love you Ma xoxoxo |
By Tracey on 25th December 2011
Hiya Ma, Merry Christmas!
Sammi is 18 today! Time has gone so quick. I gave her one of your rings, I think meant for her to have it and I know she'll treasure it.
Love you Ma... It was our 5th Christmas without you and we still miss you so much. We had a few nanny stories to tell like we always do.
xoxoxo |
By Tracey on 15th December 2011
Oh Ma, you would have been soooooooooooo proud. Sammi did so well with her results and we just found out she got School Dux of Year 12. I know how you would have loved this and been so proud too. It sucks you're not here to be here with us and enjoy it all.
I love you Ma xoxoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 7th November 2011
Hiya Ma, Just checking in to say I <3 you and miss you. xoxoxo |
By Tracey on 21st September 2011
Hiya Ma... I found out the most awful news today about a young friend :( There is going to be much sadness soon and it breaks my heart knowing the pain that is to come.
I can't say anything and just have to keep quiet...
Ma I miss you so much. You always knew what to do and what to say... you just knew.
I love you Ma
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 28th August 2011
Happy 60th Birthday Ma.... I miss you... I love you.... xoxoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 2nd August 2011
Thinking of you Ma. It is now four years and the pain is still there. I. Love you Ma xxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 6th June 2011
Hi Ma,
Poor old Bindy died last night - but I am sure you already know as she is probably bounding around up there now with you. I feel even sadder than I thought because it is another tie with you gone from this world... your old dog.
I'm glad you're together again Ma.
Love you,
Tracey xoxoxoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 2nd June 2011
Hiya Ma,
Just checking in. Want you to know I love you and think of you all the time. Thanks for keeping watch over us. xoxoxo |
By Tracey on 8th May 2011
Happy Mother's Day Ma. I just want you to know I love you so much - not just today but always.
Help us through this tough time at the moment. It's times like this I really wish you were here because you always had the answers.
Ma, I wish you were never taken away from us. It still seems so unfair.
Love you Ma xoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 3rd May 2011
I love you Ma... Just want you to know that. xoxoxo |
By Tracey on 21st April 2011
Hiya Ma, You'd be so proud - Sammi got her P's today! Please watch over her and keep her safe on the road. I love you and miss you so much Ma. You are never far from any of our thoughts... xoxoxoxoxoxoxox |
By Tracey on 12th April 2011
Hi Ma, I'm 42 today and my first thoughts were of you. Thanks for being my mum and bringing me into this world. I love you so much and will till the day I die when we are together again for giggles and cuppas! Love Tracey xoxoxoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 1st March 2011
Hiya Ma - just looking through some piccies of you on the computer. Gosh I miss you old girl, and love you so much.
Thanks for the good times Ma. I'm so lucky to have had you in my life.
xoxoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 8th February 2011
Thanks for the dream Ma xoxo |
By Tracey on 26th January 2011
Happy Australia Day Ma <3 <3 <3 |
By Tracey on 24th January 2011
Hiya Ma. A new year without you. I think of you everyday and miss you everyday.
I'd love to have a dream so you'd be alive to me once more.
Love you Ma xoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 25th December 2010
Merry Christmas Ma... It has been four years since our last Christmas with you. We all thought of you today and the happy times.
I love you Ma... xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 18th November 2010
"Together forever, never apart. Maybe in distance, but never in heart.” |
By Tracey on 17th November 2010
Hiya Ma. We have been having a giggle the last week over funny little stories with you. You left us with lots of funny stories to have a giggle over didn't you :-) Gosh I miss you. I wonder if you hear me each night when I say goodnight? I love you so much Ma and you are always in my thoughts. xoxoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 5th October 2010
Hiya Ma... I was thinking of you and just wished you were here. I love you lots and lots and lots and always will. You are in my heart forever! Love Tracey xoxoxoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 30th August 2010
Hiya Ma, We found out this morning about Charc :-( Please help him find his way in heaven too. Help John and the kids be strong. I love you Ma - so much. I know John is going to be hurting bad... because I still do over you. Love Tracey xoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 28th August 2010
Hiya Ma, Happy 59th Birthday. I've been very teary today thinking about you. I hope you are in Heaven surrounded by family, friends and our beloved pets. We all love you and miss you very much. Love Tracey xoxoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 1st August 2010
It is 3 years today Ma... I can never express in words the true extent to which I miss you - it is sooooooooooooooo much.
I miss your laugh, our conversations, your hugs, your voice... I just miss you...
Please be happy and safe wherever you are Ma... I hope you're looking down over all of us... it gives me comfort thinking you are.
Love you Ma
Traey xoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 12th July 2010
I love you Ma... It is getting close to three years now. We all miss you so much xoxoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 26th June 2010
Hiya Ma, I am having a big teary sooky day :-( I wish you were around for some much needed advice and besides that I just miss you!
Please give me a sign as to what to do? I don't have the strength everyone thinks I do. I love you Mum xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 5th June 2010
Hiya Ma. Miss you and love you. It is all nearly over now - getting to an end (you know what I mean). Thanks for the HUGE helping hand you have given us all Ma. We all love you so much and still talk about you all the time xoxoxoxo |
By Tracey on 9th May 2010
MOTHER’S DAY IN HEAVEN
It’s Mother’s Day in heaven, and though we loved them so,
God gently called our mothers home. We knew they had to go.
They had fulfilled their task on earth. They’d served Him every day.
They loved and cared and prayed and shared. God had shown them the way.
They must be kneeling by God’s throne and asking Him to send
His love to each and every child, and every special friend.
I’m sure they’ve not forgotten their loved ones here on earth.
Their happiness must rival that of when they gave us birth.
They must feel young and strong again and equal to each task
That God would have them to fulfill. They need not even ask…
For He would know that in their hearts they know and love us still,
And that they seek to serve Him yet within His blessed will.
Perhaps they’ve joined the angel choir and sing their songs of praise,
Rejoicing in God’s presence throughout un-numbered days.
While we cannot imagine the beauty of that place,
Our mothers see and understand the wonder of God’s grace.
Yes, it’s Mother’s Day in heaven, that home beyond the blue,
And our mothers will be waiting until we join them, too.
So trust in God. Give Him your heart, refuse a life of sin.
Believe His word, accept His son, and He will let us in.
© 2004 Nona Kelley Carver
I love you Ma and I miss you soooooooooooooooo much! We all do. We can laugh over our funny little memories when we talk, but the hurt is still inside. Love you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 12th April 2010
My 3rd birthday without you Ma - but I know you're looking out over me. I am glad I got to celebrate my last birthday with you.
Thanks for bringing me into this world Ma... You were the greatest mum ever.
Love Tracey xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 17th February 2010
I love you and miss you mum.
xxxx |
By Tracey on 24th January 2010
Hiya Ma - I can't stop crying over Ebs. Please let me know he is with you. It is so horrible to lose the ones we love. Give him a big cuddle for me - I am going to miss his tractor purr and his little head snuggled behind mine on the pillow. I miss you both. xxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 23rd January 2010
Hiya Ma - please look after Ebs for me and give him heaps of cuddles.... You were with me when we got him and I tell you he has given me so much comfort and love... especially after you passed. Give his chin little tickles and let him know he can snuggle behind my pillow whenever he wants. I love you both,
Tracey xxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 6th January 2010
A new year mum. Graeme's birthday today - I know you'd be with him. Love you xxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 31st December 2009
The last day of 2009 Ma - another year you have not been part of that I leave behind... a new decade you will never know.
You will always be in my heart though - and I carry that with me everyday.
Love you Ma, xxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 27th December 2009
Hiya Ma,
We were all thinking of you at Christmas. We sat around and told some 'mum' stories which brought smiles to all of our faces.
We miss you so much - but know you are with us.
Love you Ma xxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 4th December 2009
Ma I miss you xxxx |
By Tracey on 10th November 2009
Always in my thoughts Ma... I'll love you forever xxxx |
By Tracey on 29th September 2009
Hiya Ma, - I haven't forgotten you. You are in my heart forever xxx |
By Tracey on 28th August 2009
Happy Birthday Ma xxxxxxxxx You would have been 58 today. Way to young to be up in Heaven yet.
We miss you Ma and are sending you lots of love on your birthday.
Luv Tracey xxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 6th August 2009
Hiya Ma,
Two years ago today was your funeral... I gave you many thoughts today old girl... You know how much I miss you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 1st August 2009
Thinking of you today Ma on the 2nd anniversary of your death.... Gawd I miss you xxxxxxx
We thought of you with love today.
But that is nothing new.
We thought about you yesterday.
And days before that too.
We think of you in silence.
We often speak your name.
Now all we have is memories.
And your picture in a frame.
Your memory is our keepsake.
With which we'll never part.
God has you in his keeping.
We have you in our heart..
We all miss you Ma - everyone!!! You will never be replaced by us kids ever. You're in our thoughts and hearts forever. Love Tracey xxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 8th July 2009
Thinking of you this July Ma xxx
I bet you'd be thrilled with Jack's news!
Love you forever,
Tracey xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 1st June 2009
Hiya Ma,
22 months have come and gone... time is going so quickly. I love you and miss you everyday and talk to you often. I wish you could only answer back.
Love you Ma xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 9th May 2009
Happy Mother's Day Ma xxxxxxxxxxxxxx I miss you so much. It is my second Mother's Day without you and it still feels so wrong. I hope you're looking over us - all of us still miss you so much.
We all love you Ma... nobody could ever replace you in our hearts ever.
Love Tracey xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 3rd May 2009
Love you Ma - thinking of you heaps xxxx |
By Tracey on 2nd April 2009
I love you and miss you Ma xxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 1st March 2009
I miss you so much Ma xxxxxxxxxxxx Nineteen months without you in our lives is just wrong. We all miss you.... badly.
Love Tracey xxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 9th February 2009
Hiya Ma,
I was thinking of you heaps this morning - I miss you soooooooooooooooooooooooo much. I get sad thinking how the kids are growing up without you in their life :-( Look over them Ma and let them know you're there. I love you xxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 17th January 2009
Hi Ma,
I haven't forgotten you - I only just got my internet back on. I still miss you heaps everyday and so do the boys. Life is not the same without you in it.
Love you Ma xxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 25th December 2008
Merry Christmas Ma - I love you so much and miss you so much too. It was our second Christmas without you today. We had it all together and it was lovely - but you are certainly missed. I have a feeling that you were there though - I can't imagine you missing out on an occasion such as Christmas with all the family there.
Thanks for looking after us Ma and I know you still are.
I'll love you forever,
Tracey xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 17th December 2008
Hi Ma - it's getting near Christmas time and we are missing you badly... I am missing you badly :-( Jack and I were saying today it is wrong you were taken too early... we are selfish and wanted you around forever.
We love you Ma xxxxxxxxxxxx
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By Tracey on 7th December 2008
Hi Ma,
I didn't forget you on the 1st December - it's just that we were away. I was thinking of you though as I do everyday.
You have come up so much in conversation lately - I guess we all miss you so badly and it feels good to laugh about times when you were here and the funny things we all got up too.
I miss you Ma - more than I ever thought I could.
Love you, T xxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 1st November 2008
15 months Ma - and I still miss you like crazy everyday. I'd love you to be sitting on the lounge opposite me - having a cuppa and a great old gasbag like we used too. I miss that sort of stuff really bad... I just miss you... xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 18th October 2008
Hi Ma,
Thanks for your strength - I got the position. Love you and miss you still everyday. xxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey Mackie on 16th October 2008
Hiya Ma,
I forgot to say - it was Jack's birthday y/day (16th) and I know he would have been thinking of you greatly.
Luv ya xxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 16th October 2008
Dear Ma, Be with me today and let me draw on the strength I always feel from you. I know you are helping me and watching over me. Love you forever, Tracey xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 1st October 2008
Hiya Ma,
Fourteen months today and I still miss you like it all happened yesterday.
I think of you everyday with such love - and hope that you are listening when I talk to you.
Love you forever - in this lifetime and the next,
Tracey xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 20th September 2008
Hiya Ma,
Just letting you know I am thinking of yo still everyday and I look at your picture and give you a kiss everyday. You'll never be forgotten Ma xxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 1st September 2008
Hi Ma,
Thirteen months today.... I miss you so much and hurt because I loved you so much. Let me dream of you soon Ma xxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 28th August 2008
Happy 57th Birthday Ma... I've been thinking of you today and miss you sooooooooooooooooooooo very very much! I'll love you forever xxxxxx
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By Tracey on 21st August 2008
Hi Ma - You'll never be forgotten by me. You can never replace a family member - you're in my heart and my thoughts forever.
Luv Tracey xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 6th August 2008
Hiya Ma,
Today was your funeral one year ago today. I hope you got where you were going as they say in the song... I will love you and miss you so much forever Ma xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 1st August 2008
My dear beautiful mum,
Today you left this earth and our lives were to never be the same again... I miss you so much and today has been a day full of sad thoughts... I remember the pain I felt this time last year after you died - and I still feel the same... it's so hard.
I love you Ma...
"No longer in our lives to share... but in our hearts - always there".
Love Tracey xxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 30th July 2008
Hi Ma,
Today was your last full day on this earth. I can't stop thinking of you this week and know tomorrow is going to be hard. Gosh I miss you so much. Love Tracey xxxxx |
By Tracey on 21st July 2008
Mum I read this beautiful poem and I want you to know - you gave us wonderful memories and tremendous love in your 'dash' years... But I know there is another dash after that final date of 1/8/07.... I know you are still there loving us. Love Tracey xxxxx
The Dash Between the Years
I read of a man who stood to speak At the funeral of a friend He referred to the dates on her tombstone From the beginning...to the end. He noted that first came her date of birth And spoke the following date with tears, But he said what mattered most of all Was the dash between those years.
(1935 - 2001)
For that dash represents all the time That she spent alive on earth... And now only those who loved her Know what that little line is worth. For it matters not, how much we own; The cars...the house...the cash, What matters is how we live and love And how we spend our dash.
So think about this long and hard... Are there things you'd like to change? For you never know how much time is left, That can still be rearranged. If we could just slow down enough To consider what's true and real, And always try to understand The way other people feel.
And be less quick to anger, And show appreciation more And love the people in our lives Like we've never loved before. If we treat each other with respect, And more often wear a smile. Remembering that this special dash May last only a little while.
So, when your eulogy is being read With your life's actions to rehash... Would you be proud of the things they say About how you spent your dash?
by Linda Ellis
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By Tracey on 12th July 2008
Hiya Ma, I'm guessing you had a little help in Jack's decision today :-) It has made me really happy - as much as I'd have loved to have bought the farm ourselves I am just glad it is still staying in the family :-) Thrilled in fact!!! I hope it all works out and nothing changes his mind.
We all miss you like crazy - and it's hard to believe that it is nearly one year since you left us physically... I know you are here with us spiritually though because I feel you.
Love you Ma xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 1st July 2008
Hi Ma,
It is 11 months today - omg it is nearly a year :-( I keep thinking back to this time last year and how sick you were getting.... that this was the last few weeks I got to spend with you.
Gosh I miss you so much. We all talk about you constantly... I guess that's why they say - "No longer in our lives to share - but in our hearts, always there". It's true mum... you will always be there.
Missing you and loving you every day, xxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 21st June 2008
Hi Ma,
Just thinking of you and missing you so much. It's hard to believe it is going to be one year soon. I believe you are around me and so does Graeme... give Jack some faith to believe it too Ma. Love you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 1st June 2008
Hiya Ma,
Ten months today - the year is just flying. You are forever in my thoughts though... you'll never be forgotten. xxxx |
By Tracey on 11th May 2008
Dear Ma, Happy Mother's Day. My first one without you - and it feels strange :-(
I was so lucky to have you as my mum. You showed me what love is... and that is why I hurt so much now... because I loved you so much. While I have that ache though - I know I'll never forget you.
I think of you everyday - often.
One day we'll be together again Ma... thanks for everything and being a wonderful mum xxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 6th May 2008
I was looking at the last photo I took of you today Ma - I miss you so much. I am already stressing over Mother's Day this Sunday and wishing you were here. Love you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 20th April 2008
Hiya Ma... How can everyone just move on? I miss you so much and I can't :-( I'll never forget you and it hurts to think of anybody else forgetting you. When is the right time to move on? I don't know? I love you and I think of you every day. Love T xxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 12th April 2008
Hiya Ma,
It's my birthday today and my first one without you :-( You were in my thoughts when I first woke up this morning and I thought of how every year I'd hear from you but this year I wouldn't. Gawd I miss you. xxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 1st April 2008
Hi Ma,
It's 8 months today since you left us. I miss you so much. Please keep everyone safe while they are overseas: John and Billy in New Zealand - and Ted, Jack, Lucky, Noon and Alex while they're in Thailand.
I know you look out after us all - just like you did when you were here with us. Luv you Ma xxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 24th March 2008
Our first Easter spent without you Ma :-( It brings back memories gone. I love you and miss you so much everyday. I wish the hurt would ease but it hasn't yet... Anyway thinking of you - as always xxxx |
By Tracey on 1st March 2008
It's the first of March - 7 months since you have gone Ma. I still miss you heaps and heaps. I've had so many dreams about you lately - it's kind of nice actually because life feels normal in them - and then I wake up and realise you're not here anymore.
I know you're out there looking over us Ma - and I love you.
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By Tracey on 8th February 2008
Thank you soooooooooooooooooooo much mum. You have definately given me the sign I needed and I know for a fact you had a big role in it - it is unbelievable. I love you and miss you mum - and thanks again xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 1st February 2008
It's the first of February - and 6 months since you have been gone Ma. Half a year of not having you in our lives and we still miss you sooooooooooo much. But I'll not be ungrateful - because we were so lucky to have you in our lives anyway. Glad you are out of your pain and at rest... and I know you are out there watching over us.
Love Tracey xxxxx |
By Tracey on 26th January 2008
Happy Australia Day Ma... Luv you and miss you heaps xxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 6th January 2008
Hiya Ma - It's Graeme's birthday today.... First birthday without you. I rang him this morning and I reckon it would have crossed his mind.
I had the worst dream last night about Billy - woke up in tears. I bet you know what it was.
Anyway Ma - while it's Graeme's b/day - we still think of you coz we always would have heard from you on these special days... and because of you we are here now.
Love you always,
Tracey xxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 1st January 2008
Hiya Ma - Happy New Year for 2008! Jack and family went out to the dam camping with us for the night - We talked about you a fair bit xxx
It was sort of hard welcoming in the New Year - because I felt like at least you were in 2007 - with 2008 it's a whole new year which you have not been a part of and it makes me so sad to think of that :-(
Anyway you are in our thoughts constantly and we miss you badly.
Luv Tracey xxx |
By Tracey on 27th December 2007
Merry Christmas Ma xxxx We just got home this avo. We had a nice Christmas - and I gave you quite a few thoughts throughout the day - I know you were looking out over everyone.
Love you Ma xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Luv T xxx |
By Tracey on 22nd December 2007
We are heading off tomorrow Ma for a few days away over Christmas - just John, me and the kids. Merry Christmas Ma - although you know I'll be thinking of you - and thinking back to last Christmas and wishing you were here with us now. Gawd I thought I would be able to handle it all better than I am mum... when am I going to stop crying everyday... I just miss you soooooooooooooooo much. It aches inside that I can't talk to you - or that I can but you can't answer me back :-(
Thanks for looking after Pop regarding the 'c' scare. xxxx
Love you soooooooooooo much Mum.
Luv T xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 19th December 2007
Hi Ma - still thinking of you everyday xxx Watch over Pop tomorrow when he has his tests. Gawd I am missing you so much at this time of year. I was looking at the photos from last Christmas and listening to the bit of video footage - just so I could hear your voice and your laugh.
I love you soooooooooooooooooooo much
Love Tracey xxxxxx |
By Tracey on 8th December 2007
Hi Ma - still thinking of you everyday... It's going to be sad this Christmas thinking of you - and how it was only a year ago on Christmas Day when we had you here... Be with us all on Christmas mum, we can't see you but we'll feel you. Love you forever xxxxxxxxxxxxx |
By Tracey on 17th November 2007
Hi Ma,
Please look after Pop and let everything work out OK...
I miss you Ma...
Love T xxxxx |
By Tracey on 11th November 2007
Hiya Ma... Gosh I wish I could stop missing you so badly. I go to bed thinking of you every night... and then just little things throughout the day set me off. I wish you'd give me a sign Ma xxxx |
By Tracey on 5th November 2007
Thinking of you and missing you everyday Ma xxxx |
By Tracey on 1st November 2007
Three months have passed today mum since you left me - and still this hole in my heart doesn't want to heal :-( I miss you so much. There are so many times I want to pick up the phone and just talk to you and then realise I can't. I have so many questions in my head still that I guess will never be answered now... but I'll live with it I guess. Just want you to know that I love you anyway and I think of you every single day. Luv Tracey xxx |
By Tracey on 31st October 2007
Thanks Ma - I know you're watching over us xxx |
By Tracey on 25th October 2007
Gawd I miss you mum :-(
You'll know what this means...
P.H.T.D.T.R.T.B.A.O.U.K.A.W.Y.R.W.H.W
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By Tracey on 23rd October 2007
~~ A MOTHER'S LOVE ~~
A Mother's love is something
that no-one can explain,
It is made of deep devotion
and of sacrifice and pain,
It is endless and unselfish
and enduring come what may
For nothing can destroy it
or take that love away . . .
It is patient and forgiving
when all others are forsaking,
And it never fails or falters
even though the heart is breaking . . .
It believes beyond believing
when the world around condemns,
And it glows with all the beauty
of the rarest, brightest gems . . .
It is far beyond defining,
it defies all explanation,
And it still remains a secret
like the mysteries of creation . . .
A many splendoured miracle
man cannot understand
And another wondrous evidence
of God's tender guiding hand.
~Helen Steiner Rice~
Love and Miss you Ma xxxx
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By Tracey on 21st October 2007
:-( I know what you'd be thinking Ma xxx |
By Tracey on 18th October 2007
Luv ya ma... still thinking of you everyday. Was thinking of you on the 16th and of poor old Jack too... his first birthday without you - and I know he felt it. Luv you xxxx |
By Tracey on 14th October 2007
Just thinking of you ma... Gosh I still wish you were here... Things are just not the same anymore without you and I could do with one of your hugs right about now... Love Tracey xxx |
By Tracey on 12th October 2007
Keep that rain coming Ma - we need it. Miss you and love you xxxxxx |
By Tracey on 10th October 2007
Just thinking of you mum xxxx |
By Sammi on 10th October 2007
Dear Nanny..I can't help it but think of you whenever I see a horse and I want to thank you for all of the great memories you've given me and for all the things you've taught me. I'll never forget you! I love you lots! <3 Sammi oxoxoxoxox |
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By Tracey on 9th October 2007
Ma - I miss you so much. I can't stop thinking about you everyday and the tears are still flowing. I'm glad you are out of pain - but that still doesn't stop the hurt I feel from losing you. I hope you are up there with Pop and your mum. Love Tracey xxxxxxxxxx |
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